chunkiemonkie

     I haven’t been eating like I should lately. My roomate has been buying all the groceries due to my budget, or lack there of, and he basically buys cheap food to last the week (stuff like hot dogs, and Ramen Noodles) which I of course am not complaining because I should be glad that I am getting to eat at all and to have such and understanding roomate in the first place. But almost everytime I eat I feel aweful and guilty.
     On the other hand I have convinced him to buy more chicken and we have been making some chicken concoctions the last couple of days. They are for the most part healthy and filling so I am starting to feel a little better.
     I have not walked or exercised for the past 2 days and feel like a total bum about it, but there is the rest of the evening.
I have not been able to sleep very well and I am up most of the night trying to fall asleep, which is driving me crazy. I need to start getting used to getting up early and going to bed earlier so that I will be used to it by the time I get ready to start my new job. That is IF I get the job. It hasn’t even ran in the paper yet and won’t until later this week. Then I have to ride up to North Carolina and apply for it. My cousin tells me that I have nothing to worry about, but that doesn’t stop me from worrying. ANYTHING could happen.
     Anyway, maybe if I exercise in the morning and in the night I will be worn out at the end of the night so that it will be easier to fall asleep.

Kinda bummed because I weighed myself today. Haven’t lost anything and on the bright side I haven’t gained any so thats good. Just means that I need to work harder during my workouts. I have been walking to the little grocery store outside my neighborhood which is just about a mile and a half walk there and back. Last night me and my roomate walked about 3 miles to this restaurant in the little town of Norcross. I felt really good about that. We didn’t walk back because we had left overs and both of us were exhausted so we caught a taxi back. Anyway, just gotta keep it up and not give up like I have done in the past.

   Well we had our family get together today and there were so many good things that are bad for you. I didn’t want to be rude and thought I did a pretty good job of getting a little bit of everything trying not to indulge. When my mom saw my plate she was said, “that’s all you are going to eat??” I was like, “yeah for now, I might get some more after I finish this.” And I was proud of myself because I didn’t go and get seconds but I did mess up and have some cake, I couldn’t turn down my aunts cake. I sadly got a small piece wishing that I could have eaten the whole thing.
   There wasn’t much time to get to work out today but one of my cousins is really into golf and so I went and hit some golf balls with him and that was a pretty good little bit of exercise. We did that for about an hour and I could really feel it in my arms and in my back. 
   As soon as I get home, its back to business as usual for me.

   I am supposed to be moving to North Carolina pretty soon. I will have access to a gym and I cannot wait to get my butt in there. I have been doing well on the exercise machine I have, I am up to 30 minutes (its a health rider) but it gets kinda boring not having varitey. I have also been working out to the Tae Bo videos that I have and also some belly dance fitness videos that I bought years ago and never watched. It will be great to get into the gym though and use any and everything that I want. I have been too lazy for too long and I am really excited about the new opportunity that I have once I move.
   I have been cutting back on my food intake and trying to eat more fruit and drinking more water. There is going to be a family get together this weekend and its my birthday on Sunday so I hope that I can keep up the good work and not fall off the wagon

   I went for a walk today for the first time in months. I used to go to the park all the time and walk my dogs but since the car me and my brother share died a 2 ago I lost all motivation. I never enjoyed walking around my neighborhood because there are stray dogs and I don’t like the hassle worrying whether or not I will have to deal with some crazy dog coming up and trying to fight my pupps. Tonight I did it anyway. I have been cooped up for too long and I decided that I owe it to my dogs to take them for walks anyway. I just started an exercise plan last week and my poor little pupps just sit there and watch me while I workout.
    It felt really good to just get out of the house and get some exercise. I have decided to do it everyday and that it was just plain silly not to go on walks on the chance that a stray may or may not come get us
     My legs and muscles are killing me but its a good pain. When I started my workouts last week I was thrilled to see that I had lost 5 pounds. It can only get better if I add walking (even if it has to be around my hood).